question

are two people meant to be or are they made to be?

March

I honestly don't remember the last time I've felt this shitty.

This month has been a helluva ride. Theres only 4 more days of March left and although my days have been flying by, I feel like its been one of the longest months. I feel like the older I get, the more things I have to worry about and the more depressed of a person I become. Oh god, I sound like an emo old hag. I'm not normally a "sad" person and when things do happen, I try to look on the brighter side, but lately its been hard. I'm just rambling on, maybe its aunt flow talking right now. What I need is to go on a vacation and take a break from my daily life. School,work, relationships, drivers licensing, parents, family, MATH, everything has been driving me insane. I don't want to quit the things I'm doing, I love my life, I just want to take a break. No wait, I need a break.

Friday night

So I should be at my friends birthday party right now, but I'm not. Hence I am blogging!

School is starting to get hectic again but maybe its because my second math midterm is coming up. and math is definitely not for me! However, I must say that this math course right now has made me see math on a different scale. It made me realize that I'm not the only person who struggles with math and have what we call "math anxiety attacks". The 3 other girls in my group assignments struggle with math as well and so we help each other get through this nasty class. I do feel more confident about math. I've learned that I have to be confident about my own math skills in order to teach it well to younger students. Studies show that, if female teachers show any sign of anxiety while teaching math, the students will be affected as well (mainly female students). Because it is traditionally believed that boys are better at math and girls are better at reading. Therefore its not only

for my benefit but my future students as well!!!

But on a brighter note, I've purchased a few awesome things lately. I thought I'd share :)

LISE WATIER Lipstick Duo in "corail pop"

- The bottom end is a lip-stain which

you apply on first

- The top is obviously the lipstick. Which you apply on after

- The colour appears a bit darker on the lip

RIMMEL LONDON moisture renew lipstick in "Vintage pink"

- I purchased this for $5.99 and I thought the quality wouldn't be super great and I thought it might be a bit drying. Surprisingly its pretty decent and the moistness lasts :)

- Compared to their "lasting lipstick finish", this one is a lot better

chocolate + hello kitty + lipstick <3

First blog of 2011

I've realized I am a very complicated person. But then again, who isn't?

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So yesterday I wasn't having a super great day and I admit that I was being very complicated. I was making things really hard for my boyfriend too. Basically I was upset and I wanted him to go get ice cream with me but he couldn't so I felt even more upset. I know, how immature right? But I really was trying to be understanding and I was. But a part of me felt like it wasn't fair. However, in the end he agreed to go for ice cream with me and told me that I'm priority and when I'm upset, he's upset too. And so I got my way, BUT I felt guilty. Even though that was what I wanted. So complicated right?!

But going for ice cream with my boyfriend really did make me feel better. Its amazing how little things like that can brighten up my day. It meant so much to me <3

And speaking of boyfriend.. It's our 10 months tomorrow! It's not always rainbows and butterflies and we have our downs but I honestly think that everything we go through just makes us stronger. There are so many things I've learned and love about this boy :) It seemed like it was just yesterday when we first met.. and when we do think back to the day we first met, we can't stop laughing and saying how embarrassing it was for him.

I read somewhere that when a couple are able to look back at the day they first met and laugh about it, they're in a good relationship. Or something along those lines haaha k now I'm just rambling.. but what I'm tryna say is, I am so thankful for him to be in my life and i love him so much :$